I don't get it sometimes. I'm really really trying to be optimistic this week, because so far it's been pretty bad. I kind of feel like I should've switched schools when I had the chance after first semester. I'm trying to change into a better person, I really am. I've come to the conclusion that I have a bad impulse that I've named "devil bitch" (sorry for the language) to just be well, a bitch. I don't think people get what I'm trying to do. So, I just DON'T text people anymore is becaues they always, always, always, always, always take things I say the opposite way. A few of my friends have said that being my friend is pure torture. That hurt like a bitch. I've hammered out the issues with one, but everything still seems to be my fault no matter what I try to do. I'm coming to the point that I'm going to just give up, keep my mouth shut, bite my tongue and wait until graduation next year. I feel as if I'm always apologizing for something, but then when it comes around, people yell at me saying I never apologize, or when I do apologize I don't mean it. I'm a micrometer away of just giving up, and I mean it. Anyway, on the bright side, :) it's a gorgeous day here. Sun and everything. I think I'm going to go take my dog for a walk, study for a bit then maybe blog again, fix it up.
stay goregous,
little jay.
373 days (roughly) until I graduate.
It can't be that hard, right?
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