While trying to study today, I started thinking about my past and would have done differently. If I had known how things played out, what would I tell my younger self? Granted, I'm only 18 and have barely broken into adulthood, but just like every human being I've made mistakes, I've had realizations (hell, look back at old blog posts, I rant about them), and just really wanted to get them down for my sanity's sake, but if it helps someone else then that's even better. These are in no particular order.
You will survive.
I've learnt that anything happening in the present now, is mostly minuscule compared to what the future holds. The fight with your friend over, let's say a boy just for shits and giggles, isn't going to affect you for the rest of your life. Hate to break it to you. I know especially in high school, I thought fights with my friends were the end of the world. Some of them would even alter my ability at school. Frankly, I look back and I'm like "seriously? are you kidding me?" Honestly I can't even remember what most of the fights were over and who even got angry first, and this is just in the first year I've lived outside of high school. I feel like people go into high school and believe that THAT is life. We're all immature at that age, we haven't seen the world much beyond the four walls of a classroom and a projector telling us what we should learn. High school is from age maybe, 14 to 18. There is so much to life beyond that, so much. I've already realized that within six months of graduation. I can rant about this all day.
It may feel like your heartbreak is killing you, but you'll live to love again.
I haven't had very many relationships, but heartbreak isn't just from a boy/girl. Heart break comes from family, friends, losing someone or even losing sight of yourself. Your heart will break several times throughout your life, and sometimes it'll cause your life to fall apart. But it goes on, it really does. I can't stress that enough. You will find happiness again, you will be back on your own two feet, and maybe no one can give you that except yourself.
People come into your life for a season, reason or a lifetime.
We always think the people who come into our lives will be here forever, but they won't. Some people come and go as fast as seasons change. They walk in and out of our lives in merely a blink. Other people come into your life just as quick, but act as a lesson, the "reason". They teach you something sometimes without even you realizing it. It's hard to recognize these people, as I can only really do it when I'm looking back, and it's honestly heartbreaking to not see some of them anymore, or have really no idea where they went. If you're lucky, the people you want to stay in your life forever, are there for a lifetime.
Let the pieces fall how they're supposed to.
As much as we try, we really can't control our destiny and fate. Stop fighting it and go with flow and let things play out how they're supposed to. Maybe you don't agree with how it goes, but if it's in your playing cards how can you stop it? Some things in our lives we have control over, our decisions and choices. But if you're meant to be with someone, you will be with them. If you're meant to be somewhere for something, you'll be there. Sometimes some of the most important parts of your life come when you arn't expecting them, or even looking for them.
Don't take things for granted: Cherish every moment, with every person. It doesn't matter who it is, you never know when it could be the last time you ever see them.
This is so true. Sometimes I find myself sitting on the train home and think, "what if something happened, right now? would I have told everyone I love that I love them? Would I be satisfied with my life and where I am?", but just as quick as it comes, the moment goes. But really, think about it. Telling people you love them is personally, the single-handedly most important thing. You never know when you'll see them again, or even if they'll see you. Don't go to sleep mad, don't hold a grudge because in the long run, you'll regret it when you realize you can't take back what you said to them.
Apologize.
Swallow your damn pride for once, and admit your wrong. I have the biggest problem admitting I'm at fault, and sucking up enough to actually whole heartedly apologize and not half-ass it. Looking back, if I had just really apologized for some things I did or said when I needed too, high school probably would've been a bit easier. I'm too hard headed.
Jealousy really is an ugly green monster.
Cherish what you have and don't envy what others have, this goes for material items and everything else. Count your blessings, count your accomplishments, I guarantee there's a number of them no matter how big or small. Being jealous of other people has tainted some of my best friendships, and creates a wall between some of my best friends and I, when it really shouldn't be there. Do the best YOU can, and not at the standard at everyone else.
Happiness is the best revenge.
I'm not a spiteful person, I don't wish any bad on anyone. But I'll admit I've secretly looked at people and wished for a magical piano to fall from the sky and crush them to smithereens, but then I learnt it you can be happy, that's the best way to get back at someone and no longer be affected. Happiness drives people crazy, everyones looking for it and once you find it... it's the best way to get back at the people who've hurt you; without you further hurting yourself or becoming to their level. Be the bigger person.
I have more, and there very might be a sequel to this post but I hope this helped someone. :) I really do.
Keep your chin up and your shoulders back. Everything will be okay, no matter how hard it seems.
Kill them with kindness,
Little Jay
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December 6, 2011
August 21, 2010
rambles galore
Wow, I haven't blogged in 10 days.
Anyway, let's fill you in :)! First off, I've been working almost every single evening. I really need the money, and when school starts, I'm considering getting a second, easy job like a cashier or something for two shifts a week, just so there's some more money coming in. Second, last weekend my best friend, Brittany and I, threw our other best friend Jenna a surprise birthday party! It was so exciting and she loved it, which was even better.
Other than that, I've just been prepping myself for back to school. I went school supplies shopping, got some new clothes, compeletly cleaned out my desk AND closet (color-coordinated, hello.) AND my make-up collection AND shoes. :) It's so I start grade 12 with a non-cluttered life, because clutter causes stress and I really don't want stress.
It hasn't occured to me that this is grade 12, graduation year. That after this, it's university and the "real world". It'll probably occur to me at the most random time, and with how emotional I've been lately (I cry over every movie I see.), I will probably spontaneously burst into tears about it, now whether they'll be happy or sad, that I don't know. I also started drawing again, so that's a plus! What else can I tell you... What else, what else, what else.
I'm drawing a blank, but overall I've been majority positive. I mean, I've had my mood swings where I'm down and grouchy, or sad and confused, but who doesn't have those days? They're lessening slowly, and soon I hope they become rarer than rare. :)
That's all for now!
enjoy the last part of summer,
little jay
Anyway, let's fill you in :)! First off, I've been working almost every single evening. I really need the money, and when school starts, I'm considering getting a second, easy job like a cashier or something for two shifts a week, just so there's some more money coming in. Second, last weekend my best friend, Brittany and I, threw our other best friend Jenna a surprise birthday party! It was so exciting and she loved it, which was even better.
Other than that, I've just been prepping myself for back to school. I went school supplies shopping, got some new clothes, compeletly cleaned out my desk AND closet (color-coordinated, hello.) AND my make-up collection AND shoes. :) It's so I start grade 12 with a non-cluttered life, because clutter causes stress and I really don't want stress.
It hasn't occured to me that this is grade 12, graduation year. That after this, it's university and the "real world". It'll probably occur to me at the most random time, and with how emotional I've been lately (I cry over every movie I see.), I will probably spontaneously burst into tears about it, now whether they'll be happy or sad, that I don't know. I also started drawing again, so that's a plus! What else can I tell you... What else, what else, what else.
I'm drawing a blank, but overall I've been majority positive. I mean, I've had my mood swings where I'm down and grouchy, or sad and confused, but who doesn't have those days? They're lessening slowly, and soon I hope they become rarer than rare. :)
That's all for now!
enjoy the last part of summer,
little jay
July 26, 2010
out of hiding: my trip to BC!
Hello hello beautiful people!
Wow, it's been quite some time since I wrote a legit blog hey? I had that little "I-don't-know-what-to-write" phase, then I had mini vacation to British Columbia for a week. :) But now I am back, and completely ready to go! This post will mostly be about what went down on the trip, so prepare for a long one. I did have some little realizations throughout the 7 days, but I'll post those in a later blog.
Here we go. :)
So, since I live in Alberta, the drive to where I was camping in BC, Osoyoos, is only about a 10 hour car ride. Such. A. Lie. Brittany's dad decided to be Mr. Speedy McSpeederton and cut off cars to the point that we lost him on the highway. Since there was no reception in the mountains, we just went the way we THOUGHT he would go. Turns out, my dad decided to take the way that left us in the car for around 16-18 hours! Normally, I wouldn't mind this since annually my family drives from Switzerland to Portugal which is a 24 hour drive, but the view this whole roadtrip was freaking pine trees. EVERYWHERE. This is no joke, I have never seen so many pine trees in my life. In Prince George, we saw a man dressed as Elvis rocking out on the sidewalk, and that was about the only interesting scenery along this little car ride.
When my family got to our campsite, it was late so we set up our tent, filled up our air mattresses and slept. I was sleep deprived, and proceeded to cry when my dad began snoring like a rhino which lead to the purpose of my handy-dandy ear plugs the next day! :)
Anyway, the next morning we hit the local beach in Osoyoos. It was great, the sun was shining, blue sky and water. I love love love the heat, I guess that's the Portugese side of me, but I absolutely adore it. Brittany and I went for a walk along the beach, and discovered a place where they had parasailing! Of course with the excitment of being on vacation, we signed ourselves up. Surprisingly our parents agreed it would be a fun experience, and on we went to get a little lecture on what to do. Right before being catapulted into the air, I stupidly turn to the guy helping us and ask "what happens, if a bird flys into our parachute?" He looked at me like that was the craziest thing ever, and said it had never happened. But how did I know that?! We might as well could've been the first. The second we were lifted into the air, I screamed like a 4 year old. But as soon as that shock of being up 200 ft in the air was over, it was completely amazing and I never wanted it to end.
Sadly, the geese arn't afraid of swimming up to you aswell. I was so afraid they were going to attack us, that I ducked into my floaty boat until they passed. On our little canal float, it started to rain and the wind picked up. Really, it was getting freezing and we were just chilling in our little bikinis. We proceeded to paddle and paddle and paddle and paddle for what seemed like forever until we reached the end of the canal. That night we went to a family friend's house in the town of Oliver, and went to Tickleberry's! Which has 72 different flavours of ice cream, and even ice cream for dogs. It was absolutely ridiculous, and absolutely delicious!
On Friday, the last day, we stuck around in Osoyoos and hit the beach there again. That night there was going to be a "street-dance" thing that they hold semi-annually in the summer. We showed up, and literally it was all country music. Brittany and I were completely out of our element, LOL until we just decided "who cares?!" and danced. After awhile, we made some friends and went for a walk. Brittany and her friend, well, thats a story in itself and not mine to tell! But mine, Jessy, was completely awkward. LOL. We talked about how my school has 1500 kids, and his has 240, and basically I just texted the whole time. Ultimately, it was a fun last night.
Saturday morning we left, and did a 13 hour trip back home. I really didn't want to leave, and I still don't want to be here and would go back in a heartbeat. I loved it that much. But anyway, that was a massive ramble, but it was the highlight of my summer vacation so far. :)
Stay tuned for more blogs!
Hope you're having a safe summer,
little jay.
Wow, it's been quite some time since I wrote a legit blog hey? I had that little "I-don't-know-what-to-write" phase, then I had mini vacation to British Columbia for a week. :) But now I am back, and completely ready to go! This post will mostly be about what went down on the trip, so prepare for a long one. I did have some little realizations throughout the 7 days, but I'll post those in a later blog.
Here we go. :)
So, since I live in Alberta, the drive to where I was camping in BC, Osoyoos, is only about a 10 hour car ride. Such. A. Lie. Brittany's dad decided to be Mr. Speedy McSpeederton and cut off cars to the point that we lost him on the highway. Since there was no reception in the mountains, we just went the way we THOUGHT he would go. Turns out, my dad decided to take the way that left us in the car for around 16-18 hours! Normally, I wouldn't mind this since annually my family drives from Switzerland to Portugal which is a 24 hour drive, but the view this whole roadtrip was freaking pine trees. EVERYWHERE. This is no joke, I have never seen so many pine trees in my life. In Prince George, we saw a man dressed as Elvis rocking out on the sidewalk, and that was about the only interesting scenery along this little car ride.
When my family got to our campsite, it was late so we set up our tent, filled up our air mattresses and slept. I was sleep deprived, and proceeded to cry when my dad began snoring like a rhino which lead to the purpose of my handy-dandy ear plugs the next day! :)Anyway, the next morning we hit the local beach in Osoyoos. It was great, the sun was shining, blue sky and water. I love love love the heat, I guess that's the Portugese side of me, but I absolutely adore it. Brittany and I went for a walk along the beach, and discovered a place where they had parasailing! Of course with the excitment of being on vacation, we signed ourselves up. Surprisingly our parents agreed it would be a fun experience, and on we went to get a little lecture on what to do. Right before being catapulted into the air, I stupidly turn to the guy helping us and ask "what happens, if a bird flys into our parachute?" He looked at me like that was the craziest thing ever, and said it had never happened. But how did I know that?! We might as well could've been the first. The second we were lifted into the air, I screamed like a 4 year old. But as soon as that shock of being up 200 ft in the air was over, it was completely amazing and I never wanted it to end.
When we went to land, the guy had told us that you had to keep walking on the ground when you hit, and that there would be alot of impact. Brittany failed at this. When we landed, the impact was so much Brittany tripped over her own feet, causing me to trip over her, which resulted in both of us dragging along the sand as the crew of people tried to steady us. Of course, I was too busy peeing my pants laughing at the fact we had just had a crash landing to pay attention to anything they were saying.
After our parasailing adventure, we laid on the beach a little bit. Later on, we decided to be daredevils again (LOL) and went banana boating! Again, as the guy was telling us the "procedure", I turn and ask "So basically, what you're trying to say is don't let go, and hold on for your life." I think those workers thought I was an idiot, but whaaatever. On our little banana boat adventure, I kept telling the guy to go faster and it was super fun. :) We got alot of air when he would do turns, but I'm dumb and didn't know how to lean on the turns. LOL.
That was day one, the most jam-packed day ever. To think of it, this vacation was jam-packed.
The second day, we went to a beach that allowed dogs, since Daisy & Snoopy came along. This beach, I have no words to describe it. The water had seaweed beyond belief, just growing at the bottom. Brittany and I went floating, and we ended up stranded among them because neither of us wanted the seaweed getting stuck between our fingers and toes as we paddled away! Atleast I learned my dog loves to swim, he's going to be the next Michael Phelps (dog form.)
On the Tuesday, which was the third day, our families went to Penticton. Since it was cloudy that day, Brittany, My mom, Brittany's mom, and I all decided to go shopping since their was a little street that resembled Whyte Ave. Everything is ridiculously expensive. I found this adorable strapless floral dress, for like $60. I know for some people that's cheap, but I don't see the justification of spending that much on a dress I can get cheaper somewhere else!
On Wednesday, we hit up Penticton again, but this time for the beach. On the drive there, Brittany's dad decided to take a detour into the mountains. Basically, we ended up finding this astrological institute with tons of telescopes and stuff. After the little detour, we got to the beach and I met up with one of my friend's from Vancouver, Triza. :) It was cool, we went swimming and walked around for a bit until she had to leave. I also almost drowned swimming to a slide that seemed much much muuuuch closer than it really was. =.
Thursday, we hit up Penticton, AGAIN. But this time it was to float down the river canal. It was so cute, the little ducks arn't afraid to swim up to the floaties! I wanted to steal them all.
Sadly, the geese arn't afraid of swimming up to you aswell. I was so afraid they were going to attack us, that I ducked into my floaty boat until they passed. On our little canal float, it started to rain and the wind picked up. Really, it was getting freezing and we were just chilling in our little bikinis. We proceeded to paddle and paddle and paddle and paddle for what seemed like forever until we reached the end of the canal. That night we went to a family friend's house in the town of Oliver, and went to Tickleberry's! Which has 72 different flavours of ice cream, and even ice cream for dogs. It was absolutely ridiculous, and absolutely delicious!On Friday, the last day, we stuck around in Osoyoos and hit the beach there again. That night there was going to be a "street-dance" thing that they hold semi-annually in the summer. We showed up, and literally it was all country music. Brittany and I were completely out of our element, LOL until we just decided "who cares?!" and danced. After awhile, we made some friends and went for a walk. Brittany and her friend, well, thats a story in itself and not mine to tell! But mine, Jessy, was completely awkward. LOL. We talked about how my school has 1500 kids, and his has 240, and basically I just texted the whole time. Ultimately, it was a fun last night.
Saturday morning we left, and did a 13 hour trip back home. I really didn't want to leave, and I still don't want to be here and would go back in a heartbeat. I loved it that much. But anyway, that was a massive ramble, but it was the highlight of my summer vacation so far. :)
Stay tuned for more blogs!
Hope you're having a safe summer,
little jay.
July 13, 2010
Poll Result & Update.
So today the poll for the interactive story page closed,
and the results are a definate yes. :) I'm excited to start it, and after I blog I'll go start up the page, put down the things I've written for the story so far.
I'm still not really in "my zone" I guess you could call it for blogging, but I think it'll be good to start up again. I took a little break, focused on some other things and we'll see how this goes from here.
What have I been up tooo...
Well, First the job. I love it. It's so unpredictable with the variety of people that work there and the people that go eat there. It's a completely different atmosphere than my old job, and the leaders (managers) are really understanding and lenient. It's really fast paced which ironically I love. I go there and just focus on the task given to me and it completely takes my mind off things. I've had two shifts so far and I can't wait to work more.
Secondly, Summer Schoooool. Booo. No one likes to have to wake up early during their summer vacation and go work through some school modules. I've come to learn I work pretty well under pressure, considering I'm standing at a mark above an 85. Compared to the 4 month earned 63, I think it's quite the improvement. But we never know how the last few modules, midterm and final are going to be, so fingers crossed. I figured out that I actually need to ask questions, something I never do in class.
Also, in 4 days I'll be going to the lovely and warm British Columbia for a week of camping with my family, and second family. :) I'm super duper excited considering right now, Edmonton weather is being bipolar. It'll be all sunny and pretty one minute, then the next its like torrential rainfall and depressing gray skies. It'll be good to get away from everything for a few days, especially with my best friend. If I was to be stuck in a 10 hour car-ride with my brother who whistles like its going out of style, I think I would end up in a mental hospital. So I'm super glad her family is coming along.
You should check out her blog too peoples.
I must be off though, math is calling my name sadly.
little jay
Brittany's Blog: http://www.projectbeexoxo.blogspot.com/
and the results are a definate yes. :) I'm excited to start it, and after I blog I'll go start up the page, put down the things I've written for the story so far.
I'm still not really in "my zone" I guess you could call it for blogging, but I think it'll be good to start up again. I took a little break, focused on some other things and we'll see how this goes from here.
What have I been up tooo...
Well, First the job. I love it. It's so unpredictable with the variety of people that work there and the people that go eat there. It's a completely different atmosphere than my old job, and the leaders (managers) are really understanding and lenient. It's really fast paced which ironically I love. I go there and just focus on the task given to me and it completely takes my mind off things. I've had two shifts so far and I can't wait to work more.
Secondly, Summer Schoooool. Booo. No one likes to have to wake up early during their summer vacation and go work through some school modules. I've come to learn I work pretty well under pressure, considering I'm standing at a mark above an 85. Compared to the 4 month earned 63, I think it's quite the improvement. But we never know how the last few modules, midterm and final are going to be, so fingers crossed. I figured out that I actually need to ask questions, something I never do in class.
Also, in 4 days I'll be going to the lovely and warm British Columbia for a week of camping with my family, and second family. :) I'm super duper excited considering right now, Edmonton weather is being bipolar. It'll be all sunny and pretty one minute, then the next its like torrential rainfall and depressing gray skies. It'll be good to get away from everything for a few days, especially with my best friend. If I was to be stuck in a 10 hour car-ride with my brother who whistles like its going out of style, I think I would end up in a mental hospital. So I'm super glad her family is coming along.
You should check out her blog too peoples.
I must be off though, math is calling my name sadly.
little jay
Brittany's Blog: http://www.projectbeexoxo.blogspot.com/
July 6, 2010
update.
So, clearly as you see. I haven't been in the mood to blog the past few days.
There has been some hectic stuff going on, some mentioned in my previous posts.
For one, I'm in summer school. I'm re-taking Math 30 since I didn't get the mark I was aiming for the first time.
Secondly, as you all know, I got a job! This week has been training week, so my schedule has been off the wall. Here's a little look into my day:
6:30 am: wake up
8:30 am: Summer School!
9:30 or 10:30 am: leave to go to job training
10 or 11 am: Job training starts!
2 or 3: Job training ends
3-9: completely do modules, study training stuff for a big employee test.
Although it doesn't look like alot, it can get quite overwhelming. Especially with how intense this training is, literally you cover every single aspect of being a hostess. (For those of you not knowing, I got the job at Earl's Restraunt as a hostess/ assistant server)
I don't really know when I'll be in the mood to blog, to be honest. I don't want to just write down complete bull in this blog, and actually want to mean what I say and make it mean something. I'll come back with fresh ideas, and blog more than ever!
until further notice,
little jay.
There has been some hectic stuff going on, some mentioned in my previous posts.
For one, I'm in summer school. I'm re-taking Math 30 since I didn't get the mark I was aiming for the first time.
Secondly, as you all know, I got a job! This week has been training week, so my schedule has been off the wall. Here's a little look into my day:
6:30 am: wake up
8:30 am: Summer School!
9:30 or 10:30 am: leave to go to job training
10 or 11 am: Job training starts!
2 or 3: Job training ends
3-9: completely do modules, study training stuff for a big employee test.
Although it doesn't look like alot, it can get quite overwhelming. Especially with how intense this training is, literally you cover every single aspect of being a hostess. (For those of you not knowing, I got the job at Earl's Restraunt as a hostess/ assistant server)
I don't really know when I'll be in the mood to blog, to be honest. I don't want to just write down complete bull in this blog, and actually want to mean what I say and make it mean something. I'll come back with fresh ideas, and blog more than ever!
until further notice,
little jay.
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