let's get real here for a second

Facebook is a probably the number one thing that drives drama out of control and blows it out of proportion. People get involved in things that's clearly not their business, and then when someone retaliates against it; god forbid it's the end of the world. I knew coming out of high school drama wouldn't just disappear, it's human nature. But I thought my generation would at least mature a little bit. We're not in junior high.

People complain about how there's no "face to face confrontation" but you know what? don't complain about it OVER the internet, it's hypocritical. Maybe i'm contributing to this hypocrisy, but it's not my problem to deal with. I'm simply a by-stander, disagreeing with the situation. I will stand up for my friends. I'll point it out that what you're doing or saying is wrong, but won't do it in some degrading way that'll cause "beef" (lack of a better word) between you and I. I like to remain neutral, especially if both parties are my friends. It's how I've been and always will be. Deal with it.

People have the freedom to speech, yes, someone can make a blog and someone else can comment about it. But if it's nothing to do with you, why would you? Do you have nothing better to do? Are you a troll in training? Personally I know I have tons of assignments to do and too busy trying to succeed in life rather than sit there and troll peoples blogs, facebooks or twitters.

I scroll through tons of blogs a day, I read my friends, I read strangers. Blogs are like diaries. It's how the world has progressed to be. But bashing on someones personal feelings, and poking fun at them is just sickening, and as generations go on it just gets worse. I'm at fault too, I'm not saying I'm some angel who has never said anything about anyone, I have. I'll own up to it and apologize for it too. Humans are disgusting things, and it's how it is. But it shouldn't be. I've tried to change, although there's been slip ups, but at least I'm trying. Change doesn't happen over night.

If you don't want drama in your life, don't get involved with it. Ignore bullshit. Hell I've had people blog about me, not even kindly, or say things about me and I've ignored it? Because I don't care what you have to say about me. I don't care, if you don't agree with my choices or my actions. If they're a mistake, I'll realize it on my own. Shouldn't it be that way for everyone else too? I could understand if it was bullying, but if it's not even intentional threats, name calling or harassing... is it YOUR problem? No. It's not. Maybe it's just my opinion, but hey I've managed to live a more or less drama-free life since high school haven't i?

If someone writes something about someone else, they don't need a hoard of minions to defend them. I'm pretty sure we're all human enough to deal with our own problems. Your friends should be on the sidelines HELPING you get through it, NOT writing about it all over Facebook, making it a bigger deal than it really is.

I was talking to my dear friend whose dealing with something along the lines of what I've mentioned, and I told her something that I think everyone should hear. "Don't waste your time looking back at what you've lost, move on and remember life isn't meant to be travelled backwards; that's why we don't have time machines. Its why people change, why we get hurt. People walk in and out of our lives, and some will make a huge impact, while others won't. We learn from the big impacts, mistakes and things that went wrong and take that lesson to make us stronger. Your life was given to you the way it is because you're strong enough to live it."

So maybe I'm throwing another match in the already burning fire, but what the hell why not just leave it. Seriously.
Drama should be between two people: the person offended, and the offender. Not an army. Wouldn't it all just be simpler that way?
please, enlighten me.

miniature vent session?

Sometimes you have to make sacrifices in order to please the people around you,
and something I've been realizing is you can't please everyone. This, however, is difficult for me because I hate making people upset, I hate having people disappointed in me and most of all I hate when people are mad at me. I'm horrible when people are mad at me, because a) I usually forget what I did for them to be mad, and b) I start to get defensive because I have too much pride. It's been getting better though, I apologize for things I do and usually, I try to fix it or make it up to the person.

Something I've also realized, is how different life is out of high school. I know, it's naive of me to say that pretty much 4 months after graduation but I've been realizing it now more than ever. Places I thought I used to fit in so well, now just seem changed and that really, I don't fit is as great as I thought. In high school my friends circle was set. I had a a few that were true, and that I knew I could lean on them. I did have friends in other social circles, and pretty much tried to talk to everyone but overall, I had my little group. Since graduating, the group has gotten smaller, and seemingly divided. Bee talks more to Red and Kels, while I talk daily to Chandelier and Jordy. It's difficult for me, because I usually had all of them to lean back on, and while I still do in a way, most of them don't really know what goes on in my life. It really sucks when you start to not be invited to things that when you were the one planning it, you tried to make sure everyone was included (hey, it wasn't always the case, but I would try). I guess I took for granted the people in my life, although I never meant too. I understand it's apart of growing up, losing people and gaining new ones, but it's hard to deal with, especially when some friends have been there for a really long time.

I know I'll never completely lose ties with my friends, but not talking to them or feeling as if I just don't... fit (for lack of a better word) with them, is a hard pill to swallow. Maybe it's just a phase, since we're all starting a new chapter of our lives, all in different directions... but only time will tell right?

No new beginning, is ever completely new...

I was contemplating on deleting my old blog posts, since I've recently (as in, today) re-discovered my blog. But then I decided, why delete something from my past? The past is my past, and my history makes me who I am today. So therefore, you are all blessed to still see my dirty laundry from high school. Isn't that the most exciting news?!

Let's be honest here for a second. I'm not going to say that I went on some grand adventure, travelling the world and changing my life completely in which made me so busy I couldn't blog about its excitement. No. Pure and simple? I forgot about it...
I realize, it's been since May. But with graduating in June, diploma exams, going on a family vacation to Portugal and then starting University... It completely slipped my mind.

I want to say not much has changed, but in reality it has; it just doesn't seem like it. First of all, I would say the biggest shock is university. Graduation was bittersweet, I loved leaving part of high school behind... but I can't help but sometimes think back to it, and thinking I took its simplicity for granted. I've lost friends, gained some new ones, and strengthened my friendship with old ones, while maybe drifting from others. If that makes any sense, but it's what's happened. University is like a social-life leech. It's a fun-sucker. I have yet to find that "blissful happiness" in writing papers, midterms and being a slave to my textbooks + powerpoints. For those who ask: what am I studying? Let's just say I'm learning how to save your life.

A few blogposts ago, I mentioned New York. However, I did not mention the boy I met there. Let's say, he became more than just a boy to me. Nak and I have been together for 7 months now, and I've never met someone like him. He's amazing, and not even that is the right word to describe him. For friends, I'm still close to most of the girls from high school, primarily sticking to Chandelier, Jordy, Bee, and Red. I love those girls to pieces, even though it can sometimes be a roller-coaster of ups and downs.

Oh, have I also mentioned I turned 18? You can only imagine the crazy encounters or stories I'll have with this... facepalm.
But that's for another blogpost.

here's my song of the day:
Safe by OK Sweetheart

Kill 'em with kindness ;)
little jay

"everything i need to know, i learnt in kindergarden"

Today in Religion class (I go to a catholic school), the teacher read us an article about this (the title). And for the most part, it's true. Play fair. Share. Don't hit people. The Golden Rule. Take Turns. Clean up your own mess. Everything we ever need to learn about ethics or morality, we learn in kindergarden or at an extremely young age. But then why is it, when we get older, we so easily stray from these things implemented in our brain? Why is it we get greeder, and selfish? How can a 5 year old child know better than someone whose a senior in High School?
My point?

One of my friends told me that this girl, who claims herself "popular", was thinking about planning safe grad only for popular people. For those of you who don't know what safe grad is, it's basically a huge bush-party where you party it out after graduation and prom except it's totally legal and protected and stuff. It's supposed to be the last horrah together as a graduating class, where cliques, drama and a social monoarchy is supposed to disappear; just for one night. The fact that this girl thinks that the rest of the 450 graduates are not "worthy" to attend this, is absolutely DISGUSTING. A 5 year old would be nicer about inviting kids to his BIRTHDAY party.

In a world where we're trying to change, how could we with mentalities like this? WE ARE ALL PEOPLE. We are all human beings. It doesn't matter what clothes you wear, what clique your in, who you hang out with, your skin color, music prefence, anything. That shouldn't stray a person's opinion on another person. I'm not innocent to this, I'll admit I've thought in my mind "oh my god, she's such a bitch." When I don't even KNOW the person, but I'm judging based on their friends, or whatever. But it has to stop-- and I'm determined to make it stop for me.

It's about time people just grow up, and mature. We need to come to compromises or things on a small scale or large will just completely blow out of proportion! If you don't like a person the first time, give them a second chance. People do change. If you don't like them the second time, then fine have your opinion, but don't rudely voice it out? And we, as high schoolers, expect people to treat us like grown adults? We're more immature than kids in KINDERGARDEN. I am completely going on a rampage here, but it's true. But it's not only high schoolers, no. It's Junior high kids, adults, government officials. It's everyone. It's like when we pass grade one, we automatically assume that there has to be a group for certain people, that there's a social monoarchy in school, cliques. We automatically begin to think that there is someone below us. Someone not good enough to hang out with us, or be our partner in a group assignment.

I'm not just going on this tangent because there might be a chance that I won't go to safe grad, a second one can easily be arranged for the other 450 students. That's not the point of this full on rant. We need to grow up. We need to stop being so narrow minded, so outwardly opinionated, so easily hateful, so easily MEAN. Seriously, if we all just had the morals of a 5 year old, you'd see; this world would be completely different.

out of hiding: my trip to BC!

Hello hello beautiful people!
Wow, it's been quite some time since I wrote a legit blog hey? I had that little "I-don't-know-what-to-write" phase, then I had mini vacation to British Columbia for a week. :) But now I am back, and completely ready to go! This post will mostly be about what went down on the trip, so prepare for a long one. I did have some little realizations throughout the 7 days, but I'll post those in a later blog.
Here we go. :)

So, since I live in Alberta, the drive to where I was camping in BC, Osoyoos, is only about a 10 hour car ride. Such. A. Lie. Brittany's dad decided to be Mr. Speedy McSpeederton and cut off cars to the point that we lost him on the highway. Since there was no reception in the mountains, we just went the way we THOUGHT he would go. Turns out, my dad decided to take the way that left us in the car for around 16-18 hours! Normally, I wouldn't mind this since annually my family drives from Switzerland to Portugal which is a 24 hour drive, but the view this whole roadtrip was freaking pine trees. EVERYWHERE. This is no joke, I have never seen so many pine trees in my life. In Prince George, we saw a man dressed as Elvis rocking out on the sidewalk, and that was about the only interesting scenery along this little car ride.
When my family got to our campsite, it was late so we set up our tent, filled up our air mattresses and slept. I was sleep deprived, and proceeded to cry when my dad began snoring like a rhino which lead to the purpose of my handy-dandy ear plugs the next day! :)

Anyway, the next morning we hit the local beach in Osoyoos. It was great, the sun was shining, blue sky and water. I love love love the heat, I guess that's the Portugese side of me, but I absolutely adore it. Brittany and I went for a walk along the beach, and discovered a place where they had parasailing! Of course with the excitment of being on vacation, we signed ourselves up. Surprisingly our parents agreed it would be a fun experience, and on we went to get a little lecture on what to do. Right before being catapulted into the air, I stupidly turn to the guy helping us and ask "what happens, if a bird flys into our parachute?" He looked at me like that was the craziest thing ever, and said it had never happened. But how did I know that?! We might as well could've been the first. The second we were lifted into the air, I screamed like a 4 year old. But as soon as that shock of being up 200 ft in the air was over, it was completely amazing and I never wanted it to end.

When we went to land, the guy had told us that you had to keep walking on the ground when you hit, and that there would be alot of impact. Brittany failed at this. When we landed, the impact was so much Brittany tripped over her own feet, causing me to trip over her, which resulted in both of us dragging along the sand as the crew of people tried to steady us. Of course, I was too busy peeing my pants laughing at the fact we had just had a crash landing to pay attention to anything they were saying.

After our parasailing adventure, we laid on the beach a little bit. Later on, we decided to be daredevils again (LOL) and went banana boating! Again, as the guy was telling us the "procedure", I turn and ask "So basically, what you're trying to say is don't let go, and hold on for your life." I think those workers thought I was an idiot, but whaaatever. On our little banana boat adventure, I kept telling the guy to go faster and it was super fun. :) We got alot of air when he would do turns, but I'm dumb and didn't know how to lean on the turns. LOL.

That was day one, the most jam-packed day ever. To think of it, this vacation was jam-packed.

The second day, we went to a beach that allowed dogs, since Daisy & Snoopy came along. This beach, I have no words to describe it. The water had seaweed beyond belief, just growing at the bottom. Brittany and I went floating, and we ended up stranded among them because neither of us wanted the seaweed getting stuck between our fingers and toes as we paddled away! Atleast I learned my dog loves to swim, he's going to be the next Michael Phelps (dog form.)

On the Tuesday, which was the third day, our families went to Penticton. Since it was cloudy that day, Brittany, My mom, Brittany's mom, and I all decided to go shopping since their was a little street that resembled Whyte Ave. Everything is ridiculously expensive. I found this adorable strapless floral dress, for like $60. I know for some people that's cheap, but I don't see the justification of spending that much on a dress I can get cheaper somewhere else!

On Wednesday, we hit up Penticton again, but this time for the beach. On the drive there, Brittany's dad decided to take a detour into the mountains. Basically, we ended up finding this astrological institute with tons of telescopes and stuff. After the little detour, we got to the beach and I met up with one of my friend's from Vancouver, Triza. :) It was cool, we went swimming and walked around for a bit until she had to leave. I also almost drowned swimming to a slide that seemed much much muuuuch closer than it really was. =.

Thursday, we hit up Penticton, AGAIN. But this time it was to float down the river canal. It was so cute, the little ducks arn't afraid to swim up to the floaties! I wanted to steal them all.

Sadly, the geese arn't afraid of swimming up to you aswell. I was so afraid they were going to attack us, that I ducked into my floaty boat until they passed. On our little canal float, it started to rain and the wind picked up. Really, it was getting freezing and we were just chilling in our little bikinis. We proceeded to paddle and paddle and paddle and paddle for what seemed like forever until we reached the end of the canal. That night we went to a family friend's house in the town of Oliver, and went to Tickleberry's! Which has 72 different flavours of ice cream, and even ice cream for dogs. It was absolutely ridiculous, and absolutely delicious!

On Friday, the last day, we stuck around in Osoyoos and hit the beach there again. That night there was going to be a "street-dance" thing that they hold semi-annually in the summer. We showed up, and literally it was all country music. Brittany and I were completely out of our element, LOL until we just decided "who cares?!" and danced. After awhile, we made some friends and went for a walk. Brittany and her friend, well, thats a story in itself and not mine to tell! But mine, Jessy, was completely awkward. LOL. We talked about how my school has 1500 kids, and his has 240, and basically I just texted the whole time. Ultimately, it was a fun last night.
Saturday morning we left, and did a 13 hour trip back home. I really didn't want to leave, and I still don't want to be here and would go back in a heartbeat. I loved it that much. But anyway, that was a massive ramble, but it was the highlight of my summer vacation so far. :)
Stay tuned for more blogs!
Hope you're having a safe summer,
little jay.

Poll Result & Update.

So today the poll for the interactive story page closed,
and the results are a definate yes. :) I'm excited to start it, and after I blog I'll go start up the page, put down the things I've written for the story so far.

I'm still not really in "my zone" I guess you could call it for blogging, but I think it'll be good to start up again. I took a little break, focused on some other things and we'll see how this goes from here.
What have I been up tooo...

Well, First the job. I love it. It's so unpredictable with the variety of people that work there and the people that go eat there. It's a completely different atmosphere than my old job, and the leaders (managers) are really understanding and lenient. It's really fast paced which ironically I love. I go there and just focus on the task given to me and it completely takes my mind off things. I've had two shifts so far and I can't wait to work more.

Secondly, Summer Schoooool. Booo. No one likes to have to wake up early during their summer vacation and go work through some school modules. I've come to learn I work pretty well under pressure, considering I'm standing at a mark above an 85. Compared to the 4 month earned 63, I think it's quite the improvement. But we never know how the last few modules, midterm and final are going to be, so fingers crossed. I figured out that I actually need to ask questions, something I never do in class.

Also, in 4 days I'll be going to the lovely and warm British Columbia for a week of camping with my family, and second family. :) I'm super duper excited considering right now, Edmonton weather is being bipolar. It'll be all sunny and pretty one minute, then the next its like torrential rainfall and depressing gray skies. It'll be good to get away from everything for a few days, especially with my best friend. If I was to be stuck in a 10 hour car-ride with my brother who whistles like its going out of style, I think I would end up in a mental hospital. So I'm super glad her family is coming along.
You should check out her blog too peoples.

I must be off though, math is calling my name sadly.
little jay

Brittany's Blog: http://www.projectbeexoxo.blogspot.com/