My tongue is definitely not that short. goin' to work, ttyl. :)
November 24, 2011
November 23, 2011
losing braincells as we speak...
My slacker status only seems to be increasing as I care less and less for my classes. This may be a problem.
I remember being a kid and everything being so simple. It's funny, because then I used to think it was hard. I thought long division would be the death of me (and to be honest, I still don't know how to do it).
Pause. Funny moment:
Dear "I wasn't that drunk",
you were hugging an old man with a beard screaming "DUMBLEDORE YOU'RE ALIVE"
sincerely, sober people don't do that...
And that was courtesy of "dearblankpleaseblank.com"
Sorry, I had to share that. This is what I accomplish in my classes, primarily Anatomy. But back to my reminiscing of life before university. I can't do long division, I can't multiply two fractions without a calculator, and according to my English Professor: I cannot make a proper thesis. You're taught all these things that allegedly you MUST know in order to succeed in life, but I once saw a picture that really describes school life.
Pre-School: they sit you behind a desk and tell you not to break anything.
Elementary: Tell you it's a lot harder in Junior High
Jr. High: Tell you it's a lot harder in High School
High School: Tell you it's a lot harder in College/University
College/ University: Tell you it's a lot harder in the real world
Real World: sit you behind a desk and you try not to break anything. <---- although this is only applicable to some jobs, I found it so true.
What kind of world did we build, that we have to go to school 12 years in order to understand it, and then if you want to "succeed" in it, you have to go to school for another year or as many years as it takes to become the very important job you are seeking to be. Maybe this is a pointless rant. But really, I need to waste another half hour until my class is done.
I'm going to go look up stupid things on the internet now.
I'll blog later and post my listen-of-the-day for how ever many days I've missed.
Kill them with kindness,
little jay.
PS- my next blog will probably be more relevant to life, and not as pointless.
I remember being a kid and everything being so simple. It's funny, because then I used to think it was hard. I thought long division would be the death of me (and to be honest, I still don't know how to do it).
Pause. Funny moment:
Dear "I wasn't that drunk",
you were hugging an old man with a beard screaming "DUMBLEDORE YOU'RE ALIVE"
sincerely, sober people don't do that...
And that was courtesy of "dearblankpleaseblank.com"
Sorry, I had to share that. This is what I accomplish in my classes, primarily Anatomy. But back to my reminiscing of life before university. I can't do long division, I can't multiply two fractions without a calculator, and according to my English Professor: I cannot make a proper thesis. You're taught all these things that allegedly you MUST know in order to succeed in life, but I once saw a picture that really describes school life.
Pre-School: they sit you behind a desk and tell you not to break anything.
Elementary: Tell you it's a lot harder in Junior High
Jr. High: Tell you it's a lot harder in High School
High School: Tell you it's a lot harder in College/University
College/ University: Tell you it's a lot harder in the real world
Real World: sit you behind a desk and you try not to break anything. <---- although this is only applicable to some jobs, I found it so true.
What kind of world did we build, that we have to go to school 12 years in order to understand it, and then if you want to "succeed" in it, you have to go to school for another year or as many years as it takes to become the very important job you are seeking to be. Maybe this is a pointless rant. But really, I need to waste another half hour until my class is done.
I'm going to go look up stupid things on the internet now.
I'll blog later and post my listen-of-the-day for how ever many days I've missed.
Kill them with kindness,
little jay.
PS- my next blog will probably be more relevant to life, and not as pointless.
November 21, 2011
dum-de-dum
Here I am again...
My efforts to write my english research paper keep dwindling.
This is a problem. It's due Wednesday. I don't even have a thesis.
I never procrastinated this badly in high school. Isn't that supposed to change in University? Arn't you supposed to become more motivated? Unfortunately, my english teacher is well, a bitch. Everything is wrong in her eyes, literally, everything. So my mentality with this course (and ultimately, this paper), is well... I'm going to fail it anyways.
Let's give this another go.
Meaning, there'll probably be another blog post in the next 2-3 hours.
My efforts to write my english research paper keep dwindling.
This is a problem. It's due Wednesday. I don't even have a thesis.
I never procrastinated this badly in high school. Isn't that supposed to change in University? Arn't you supposed to become more motivated? Unfortunately, my english teacher is well, a bitch. Everything is wrong in her eyes, literally, everything. So my mentality with this course (and ultimately, this paper), is well... I'm going to fail it anyways.
Let's give this another go.
Meaning, there'll probably be another blog post in the next 2-3 hours.
let's get real here for a second
Facebook is a probably the number one thing that drives drama out of control and blows it out of proportion. People get involved in things that's clearly not their business, and then when someone retaliates against it; god forbid it's the end of the world. I knew coming out of high school drama wouldn't just disappear, it's human nature. But I thought my generation would at least mature a little bit. We're not in junior high.
People complain about how there's no "face to face confrontation" but you know what? don't complain about it OVER the internet, it's hypocritical. Maybe i'm contributing to this hypocrisy, but it's not my problem to deal with. I'm simply a by-stander, disagreeing with the situation. I will stand up for my friends. I'll point it out that what you're doing or saying is wrong, but won't do it in some degrading way that'll cause "beef" (lack of a better word) between you and I. I like to remain neutral, especially if both parties are my friends. It's how I've been and always will be. Deal with it.
People have the freedom to speech, yes, someone can make a blog and someone else can comment about it. But if it's nothing to do with you, why would you? Do you have nothing better to do? Are you a troll in training? Personally I know I have tons of assignments to do and too busy trying to succeed in life rather than sit there and troll peoples blogs, facebooks or twitters.
I scroll through tons of blogs a day, I read my friends, I read strangers. Blogs are like diaries. It's how the world has progressed to be. But bashing on someones personal feelings, and poking fun at them is just sickening, and as generations go on it just gets worse. I'm at fault too, I'm not saying I'm some angel who has never said anything about anyone, I have. I'll own up to it and apologize for it too. Humans are disgusting things, and it's how it is. But it shouldn't be. I've tried to change, although there's been slip ups, but at least I'm trying. Change doesn't happen over night.
If you don't want drama in your life, don't get involved with it. Ignore bullshit. Hell I've had people blog about me, not even kindly, or say things about me and I've ignored it? Because I don't care what you have to say about me. I don't care, if you don't agree with my choices or my actions. If they're a mistake, I'll realize it on my own. Shouldn't it be that way for everyone else too? I could understand if it was bullying, but if it's not even intentional threats, name calling or harassing... is it YOUR problem? No. It's not. Maybe it's just my opinion, but hey I've managed to live a more or less drama-free life since high school haven't i?
If someone writes something about someone else, they don't need a hoard of minions to defend them. I'm pretty sure we're all human enough to deal with our own problems. Your friends should be on the sidelines HELPING you get through it, NOT writing about it all over Facebook, making it a bigger deal than it really is.
I was talking to my dear friend whose dealing with something along the lines of what I've mentioned, and I told her something that I think everyone should hear. "Don't waste your time looking back at what you've lost, move on and remember life isn't meant to be travelled backwards; that's why we don't have time machines. Its why people change, why we get hurt. People walk in and out of our lives, and some will make a huge impact, while others won't. We learn from the big impacts, mistakes and things that went wrong and take that lesson to make us stronger. Your life was given to you the way it is because you're strong enough to live it."
So maybe I'm throwing another match in the already burning fire, but what the hell why not just leave it. Seriously.
Drama should be between two people: the person offended, and the offender. Not an army. Wouldn't it all just be simpler that way?
please, enlighten me.
People complain about how there's no "face to face confrontation" but you know what? don't complain about it OVER the internet, it's hypocritical. Maybe i'm contributing to this hypocrisy, but it's not my problem to deal with. I'm simply a by-stander, disagreeing with the situation. I will stand up for my friends. I'll point it out that what you're doing or saying is wrong, but won't do it in some degrading way that'll cause "beef" (lack of a better word) between you and I. I like to remain neutral, especially if both parties are my friends. It's how I've been and always will be. Deal with it.
People have the freedom to speech, yes, someone can make a blog and someone else can comment about it. But if it's nothing to do with you, why would you? Do you have nothing better to do? Are you a troll in training? Personally I know I have tons of assignments to do and too busy trying to succeed in life rather than sit there and troll peoples blogs, facebooks or twitters.
I scroll through tons of blogs a day, I read my friends, I read strangers. Blogs are like diaries. It's how the world has progressed to be. But bashing on someones personal feelings, and poking fun at them is just sickening, and as generations go on it just gets worse. I'm at fault too, I'm not saying I'm some angel who has never said anything about anyone, I have. I'll own up to it and apologize for it too. Humans are disgusting things, and it's how it is. But it shouldn't be. I've tried to change, although there's been slip ups, but at least I'm trying. Change doesn't happen over night.
If you don't want drama in your life, don't get involved with it. Ignore bullshit. Hell I've had people blog about me, not even kindly, or say things about me and I've ignored it? Because I don't care what you have to say about me. I don't care, if you don't agree with my choices or my actions. If they're a mistake, I'll realize it on my own. Shouldn't it be that way for everyone else too? I could understand if it was bullying, but if it's not even intentional threats, name calling or harassing... is it YOUR problem? No. It's not. Maybe it's just my opinion, but hey I've managed to live a more or less drama-free life since high school haven't i?
If someone writes something about someone else, they don't need a hoard of minions to defend them. I'm pretty sure we're all human enough to deal with our own problems. Your friends should be on the sidelines HELPING you get through it, NOT writing about it all over Facebook, making it a bigger deal than it really is.
I was talking to my dear friend whose dealing with something along the lines of what I've mentioned, and I told her something that I think everyone should hear. "Don't waste your time looking back at what you've lost, move on and remember life isn't meant to be travelled backwards; that's why we don't have time machines. Its why people change, why we get hurt. People walk in and out of our lives, and some will make a huge impact, while others won't. We learn from the big impacts, mistakes and things that went wrong and take that lesson to make us stronger. Your life was given to you the way it is because you're strong enough to live it."
So maybe I'm throwing another match in the already burning fire, but what the hell why not just leave it. Seriously.
Drama should be between two people: the person offended, and the offender. Not an army. Wouldn't it all just be simpler that way?
please, enlighten me.
November 19, 2011
slacker right here
Not only have I not started my english research paper worth 25% of my mark (due Wednesday),
I have also not had "listens of the day" for what... two-three days? definitely one, wow. I'm so becoming a mathematician.
Here they are!
Friday: After a great day with Chandelier and her mommy to see Breaking Dawn,I was extremely moody and... hormonal. Pretty much I ended up crying on my laundry because I convinced myself my existence to life was not important. Hormones does stupid shit to people. so here's my listen for Friday!
Slow me down by Emmy Rossum
Saturday: (today) Not going to lie, I thought today was going to suck because I was supposed to go shopping with Red and Bee, but opted to hang with my dad instead because I rarely see him. Usually our hangouts turn into him leaving somewhere to run errands and me doing homework, but not this time. I had an amazing day with my family, NAK was invited for dinner and hang out with my family too. I don't think it could've been anymore perfect. Here's my listen for today!
In the Morning by Jack Johnson
Here you have it! :) enjoy two amazing songs!
kill them with kindnessssss,
Little Jay!
side note:
Can I just point out I'm probably the worst person in the kitchen? I definitely burnt chocolate... in the microwave.
I have also not had "listens of the day" for what... two-three days? definitely one, wow. I'm so becoming a mathematician.
Here they are!
Friday: After a great day with Chandelier and her mommy to see Breaking Dawn,I was extremely moody and... hormonal. Pretty much I ended up crying on my laundry because I convinced myself my existence to life was not important. Hormones does stupid shit to people. so here's my listen for Friday!
Slow me down by Emmy Rossum
Saturday: (today) Not going to lie, I thought today was going to suck because I was supposed to go shopping with Red and Bee, but opted to hang with my dad instead because I rarely see him. Usually our hangouts turn into him leaving somewhere to run errands and me doing homework, but not this time. I had an amazing day with my family, NAK was invited for dinner and hang out with my family too. I don't think it could've been anymore perfect. Here's my listen for today!
In the Morning by Jack Johnson
Here you have it! :) enjoy two amazing songs!
kill them with kindnessssss,
Little Jay!
side note:
Can I just point out I'm probably the worst person in the kitchen? I definitely burnt chocolate... in the microwave.
miniature vent session?
Sometimes you have to make sacrifices in order to please the people around you,
and something I've been realizing is you can't please everyone. This, however, is difficult for me because I hate making people upset, I hate having people disappointed in me and most of all I hate when people are mad at me. I'm horrible when people are mad at me, because a) I usually forget what I did for them to be mad, and b) I start to get defensive because I have too much pride. It's been getting better though, I apologize for things I do and usually, I try to fix it or make it up to the person.
Something I've also realized, is how different life is out of high school. I know, it's naive of me to say that pretty much 4 months after graduation but I've been realizing it now more than ever. Places I thought I used to fit in so well, now just seem changed and that really, I don't fit is as great as I thought. In high school my friends circle was set. I had a a few that were true, and that I knew I could lean on them. I did have friends in other social circles, and pretty much tried to talk to everyone but overall, I had my little group. Since graduating, the group has gotten smaller, and seemingly divided. Bee talks more to Red and Kels, while I talk daily to Chandelier and Jordy. It's difficult for me, because I usually had all of them to lean back on, and while I still do in a way, most of them don't really know what goes on in my life. It really sucks when you start to not be invited to things that when you were the one planning it, you tried to make sure everyone was included (hey, it wasn't always the case, but I would try). I guess I took for granted the people in my life, although I never meant too. I understand it's apart of growing up, losing people and gaining new ones, but it's hard to deal with, especially when some friends have been there for a really long time.
I know I'll never completely lose ties with my friends, but not talking to them or feeling as if I just don't... fit (for lack of a better word) with them, is a hard pill to swallow. Maybe it's just a phase, since we're all starting a new chapter of our lives, all in different directions... but only time will tell right?
and something I've been realizing is you can't please everyone. This, however, is difficult for me because I hate making people upset, I hate having people disappointed in me and most of all I hate when people are mad at me. I'm horrible when people are mad at me, because a) I usually forget what I did for them to be mad, and b) I start to get defensive because I have too much pride. It's been getting better though, I apologize for things I do and usually, I try to fix it or make it up to the person.
Something I've also realized, is how different life is out of high school. I know, it's naive of me to say that pretty much 4 months after graduation but I've been realizing it now more than ever. Places I thought I used to fit in so well, now just seem changed and that really, I don't fit is as great as I thought. In high school my friends circle was set. I had a a few that were true, and that I knew I could lean on them. I did have friends in other social circles, and pretty much tried to talk to everyone but overall, I had my little group. Since graduating, the group has gotten smaller, and seemingly divided. Bee talks more to Red and Kels, while I talk daily to Chandelier and Jordy. It's difficult for me, because I usually had all of them to lean back on, and while I still do in a way, most of them don't really know what goes on in my life. It really sucks when you start to not be invited to things that when you were the one planning it, you tried to make sure everyone was included (hey, it wasn't always the case, but I would try). I guess I took for granted the people in my life, although I never meant too. I understand it's apart of growing up, losing people and gaining new ones, but it's hard to deal with, especially when some friends have been there for a really long time.
I know I'll never completely lose ties with my friends, but not talking to them or feeling as if I just don't... fit (for lack of a better word) with them, is a hard pill to swallow. Maybe it's just a phase, since we're all starting a new chapter of our lives, all in different directions... but only time will tell right?
November 17, 2011
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