Everyone has an idol. It can be a rockstar, an actor/actress, anyone. Mine happens to be my best friend. As you all know from my previous post (two months ago), she was diagnosed with cancer. Since then she has done 4 chemo treatments, and her arm has shrunken significantly to the point where she can fit in her old t-shirts again. I almost burst into tears or shit my pants (or a combination) when she showed me that she had mobility again and started moving her shoulder in a way I hadn't seen in months. Since her diagnosis she has spent most of her time in the hospital, but even so we make time to see each other at least once a week (with a half hour drive on my part, but distance means nothing to me).
I wasn't sure how cancer would take a toll on her. I knew she was strong, I never doubted that for a second. I also knew she was going to lose all her hair and be weaker from the chemotherapy. But I was afraid of how her personality would change.Throughout all of this, I admire how she's stayed the same person: goofy, loving, bubbly and silly. Her confidence floors me, and she gives me strength and inspires me to move forward in my life no matter what I face. When I first saw her without her hair, I'll admit, I was stunned. I didn't know how to feel: angry because she didn't deserve to go through this? sad? I didn't know. But thirty seconds from walking into the hospital room, she began to make bald jokes and even convinced me to pet her head which "felt like a puppy".
I know that she has a long journey ahead of her, and that she has 27 treatments to go but everyday is a day closer to her being healthy again. I can't wait until we can take a road trip down to California and hunt down all the food trucks (because now, she is obsessed with the food network), or go back to New York City together. She'll make it through this with grace and beauty, just how she's overcome everything else in her life; and I'll be right beside her just like I always have. I love you cm/miley/chandelier <3 nbsp="nbsp" p="p">
