scatterbrained organization

I felt the need to write a blog post today. I don't give it enough TLC as it needs. :( Poor blog, being rejected and forgotten about amongst all the hectic things of life.
Initially, I didn't know what I was going to write about. But in the process of waiting for my laptops slower-than-a-snail internet to load up my page, I figured out a subject.
I don't remember if I've written about this SPECIFIC subject, and I'm really too lazy to go back and wait 50 years for my internet to load my blog posts so I can check, so just live with it! :)

I do know I've talked about wanting to help people (blog post: extreme makeover: life edition) but I don't think I've actually said how I seriously PLAN to, or what I've arranged for me to meet my general goal of helping people. I also know I haven't added anything to the self project in awhile, so this post can tie into that aswell.

For me, this year I want to have alot going on. When I'm busy it keeps me focused. Yes, I get deathly tired and sometimes cranky, but I don't slack and I stay completely ontop of things. First thing I signed up for, was to volunteer for the organization Big Brothers, Big Sisters. Basicaly what I'll be doing, is every Friday afternoon for about an hour I go to an elementary school and spend time with a child whose life isn't the greatest. Maybe they're sick, or have a horrible family life, but the point is to get their mind off their problems for even a little bit, and to guide them through.

Next thing I plan doing, is joining Peer Tutoring. Pretty much I'd just help a student in my school with a subject they're struggling in, that I do well in. Pretty straight forward and self-explanitory right? I also want to help out at soup kitchens or the food bank during the winter break, and HOPEFULLY (I don't know if it's allowed) be able to volunteer at the Children's Hospital. Another thing I definately want to do, is hand out presents to less fortunate kids around Christmas.

We're all humans, and we all need to help eachother out. Race, Colour, Social Status means nothing in the long run. So what I'm going to add to the Self Project, is:

GIVE BACK.

Give back to your family, friends, community, teachers, anything. Give back, or give in general not expecting something in return. Humans need to be more self-less, and trusting. We're all so paranoid with eachother that (i'll admit i've done this too) when someone is walking behind you on a street when you're alone, we walk faster or begin to panic, even if it's just slightly. We're all guilty of it. I'm not saying strike up a conversation with every stranger that passes you by, I'm just talking about saying hello, or good morning/afternoon/evening when you pass someone on the sidewalk.

I am a full-frontal believer on the Golden Rule, "Do unto others as you would want done to you" because it's true. Everything would be so much simpler if people weren't so judgemental, or criticizing. If you don't want someone to say that they hate your outfit, then don't say you hate the other persons outfit (small scale example, but still!).

Anyway, I'm completely beat. I've had a jam-packed weekend and I'm just going to cuddle up on my couch and watch a movie before bed. I'll blog again soon loves!

smile more,
little jay

september: pimples, stress + school.

lalala! So, I haven't blogged in quite some time now.
The title of this blog actually has nothing to do with the blog entry itself....
Sorry I've been slacking, but now with school I'm determined to keep my marks above 85, because this year is extremely important. Also with work, I work all throughout my weekend, and when I'm not working I'm sleeping or really, doing homework. Not exactly the fun life going on here.
Although I feel like I don't have anything to talk about, I really do.
First of all, I think I have FINALLY figured out what I want to do with my life. Occupational wise anyway. I don't remeber if I've mentioned this, but I want to become a nurse. Then I began to think, why not go all the way? So here is my plan! I take a nursing degree for 4 years, and maintain a 3.5 or higher GPA (this will be killer, but I will work my butt off.) After graduating, I'd work in a hospital for a year or two to kind of get my feet on the ground. Afterwards, I'd move down to Calgary and go to Med School, and become a pediatrician. I always kind of had that dream at the back of my mind, but I never really thought I could achieve it. But now, I think I could if I really focus on it and work towards it. BUT we'll see how things go, right? Luckily I graduate at 17, and have some time to do everything.

Have I mentioned I am extremely excited for New York in March? Well, I'm extremely excited. Like, ecstatic to the point that when I got our flight times, I danced and skipped around my mom in the kitchen. I know, I'm lame.

Ohhhh myyy goooossshhhhh, I feel like I have so much to WRITE and I DO but I'm so tired to even write it... I think I'm going to go to sleep then blog again later on when I'm not falling over my keyboard. Yes, that is a smart choice.

Be cool, stay in school!
little jay

"everything i need to know, i learnt in kindergarden"

Today in Religion class (I go to a catholic school), the teacher read us an article about this (the title). And for the most part, it's true. Play fair. Share. Don't hit people. The Golden Rule. Take Turns. Clean up your own mess. Everything we ever need to learn about ethics or morality, we learn in kindergarden or at an extremely young age. But then why is it, when we get older, we so easily stray from these things implemented in our brain? Why is it we get greeder, and selfish? How can a 5 year old child know better than someone whose a senior in High School?
My point?

One of my friends told me that this girl, who claims herself "popular", was thinking about planning safe grad only for popular people. For those of you who don't know what safe grad is, it's basically a huge bush-party where you party it out after graduation and prom except it's totally legal and protected and stuff. It's supposed to be the last horrah together as a graduating class, where cliques, drama and a social monoarchy is supposed to disappear; just for one night. The fact that this girl thinks that the rest of the 450 graduates are not "worthy" to attend this, is absolutely DISGUSTING. A 5 year old would be nicer about inviting kids to his BIRTHDAY party.

In a world where we're trying to change, how could we with mentalities like this? WE ARE ALL PEOPLE. We are all human beings. It doesn't matter what clothes you wear, what clique your in, who you hang out with, your skin color, music prefence, anything. That shouldn't stray a person's opinion on another person. I'm not innocent to this, I'll admit I've thought in my mind "oh my god, she's such a bitch." When I don't even KNOW the person, but I'm judging based on their friends, or whatever. But it has to stop-- and I'm determined to make it stop for me.

It's about time people just grow up, and mature. We need to come to compromises or things on a small scale or large will just completely blow out of proportion! If you don't like a person the first time, give them a second chance. People do change. If you don't like them the second time, then fine have your opinion, but don't rudely voice it out? And we, as high schoolers, expect people to treat us like grown adults? We're more immature than kids in KINDERGARDEN. I am completely going on a rampage here, but it's true. But it's not only high schoolers, no. It's Junior high kids, adults, government officials. It's everyone. It's like when we pass grade one, we automatically assume that there has to be a group for certain people, that there's a social monoarchy in school, cliques. We automatically begin to think that there is someone below us. Someone not good enough to hang out with us, or be our partner in a group assignment.

I'm not just going on this tangent because there might be a chance that I won't go to safe grad, a second one can easily be arranged for the other 450 students. That's not the point of this full on rant. We need to grow up. We need to stop being so narrow minded, so outwardly opinionated, so easily hateful, so easily MEAN. Seriously, if we all just had the morals of a 5 year old, you'd see; this world would be completely different.

deciding my future.

So, on the first day of senior year this week my grade advisor, Mr. Armstrong told our graduating class something that made me completely pee my pants. He said that University registration began around October 1st. For someone who hadn't even thought of what I wanted to do WITH my life (too seriously anyway), this was a complete wake-up call. In 3 weeks, I basically have to decide what I want to do with my life.

I wanted to go to Vancouver, UBC for awhile now. But I was looking up approximations for tuition, fees and housing.... I would be paying $18, 726 a year. I could never afford that without a student loan, and I really don't want to have to use a student loan.
So now I'm looking at my second option: U of A.
I was looking online again, and have come up with an idea.
I've always liked arts, so I was thinking to maybe get a Bachelor of Arts, majoring in english and psycology. Then maybe transfering into the faculty of Education. Of course I have to still talk to the Career Counsellor at school, but this is just an idea flopping around my head. :)

Sorry for the lack of blogs!